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Sunday, April 03, 2005

It has been awhile since I took a little stroll along the beach. Long ago, I loved to cycle along the ECP with my Specialised Mountain Bike. I remember I will wake up at 6am to have breakfast set at the coffee shop, before embarking on the morning ride.

Pasir Ris beach last night isn't really that great as compared to ECP. The lack of open space really spoils the mood. However, the walk along the still packed beach brings reminisce of my olden days. Now that I am not riding, every little step seems to slow down time.

Groups of people fellowship. They laugh. They chase one another. They ate and barbecued. Different people from different walks of life. Each have their own and seperate ways. As I walked, I wished I would enjoy those olden times with my friends again: The guitarissimo chalet beer nights out at Fishermen. A long table. Good pals. Tiger beer. Chicken wings. We just drank and laughed and enjoyed life as it is offered to us: With my TPJC S08 as well, as we gathered to catch up on one another: Or with Lester and Ziline, beer and topshell and chicken wings, as we shared navy and relationship issues.

As I walked, I saw those kids having fun at the spinning saucer playground. That was one of my fav! Really feel like jumping on, but it all seems too inappropriate in my formal wear,black pants and shoes. Then came the spider web. I remembered climbing it. and also sliding down the long rope. Fun. Just pure fun. I am a lil scared of height tho. Haha.

I also remembered my friend Paul who passed away when he drowned off the breakwater. He was so young and the future so much in store for him. Paul, thanks for all the moments u painted my life with.

The whole lane of bungalows are packed with parties and celebration. Cars piled the driveway. I hesitated to even reach for mine as I had a hard time parallel parking it btw 2 cars. And I believe for the next few moment, they will still be there. So might as well wait for one or both to drive off first. Ok! I am not lousy. I cannot see properly at night and mine does not have a reverse sensor fitted. I am just playing safe!!! Good grace!

The sun today was great. I guess my grandma was shocked when I offerd to fetch her to work. It is awhile since I put a gleam on her face. Haha. She did impress me with some english vocab in the kangoo tho! Met my parents after so long!!!! Help out awhile before heading home to bring food for my family members. But it was Simei first to get my grandma's instant porridge!

I dunno why. Something just compelled me to head to the swimming pool below which i normally find it hard to. I changed and grab a towel, a coke light from the fridge and of course the papers. Headed down and boy it felt liks a holiday resort packed with tourist. Kids having swimming lessons, eurasians having parties and suntanning, couples sharing good times in the pool and jacuzzi.

I grab a beach chair and relxed myself. Then I was asleep in the sun. Not long later, someone sprayed banana lotion on me!! It was my brother!...hahahaah. He came down with coke and food too. So both of us relaxed in the sun. It was really great and relaxing

The therapeutic sound of the water fall and the kids conversation made me just relaxed and all. The wind was moderate and the clouds on and off. But all in all, it was an experience I long yearned for and not enjoyed since the hectic schoolwork piled!!! I wished I enjoyed school but i did not.

I now hope that I can go to the gym more often. To run the tracks and do some weights. Time to feel better and focus on something meaningful in life. Like your health. I recently have been struck by heart/chest pains, causing me to stop breathing as it will hurt so much. I cannot imagine if one day the pain will be so great i could not breath at all. And I might just pass away young. Many dreams unfufilled. Somethings in life i worked hard and yearn after, no longer there for me to embrace or work towards to. Like my friend said, I might be a passer by. Even as i type this, my chest is starting the pain again. But it is on and off and in a slightly smaller amount. I can still breath deep enough. I dun wish to die too young either due to this, or maybe a car accident. But if i do, i want my friends to remember me as someone who brought laughter into their lives. All my out of point silly jokes, the music I play for them, the little things in life i did for them. I want my legacy to be one of closet to their hearts as they remembered me. That I tried as much to be an angel to all of them in my shortened lifetime.

If you even read to this point, you seemed pretty interested in my blog. Thanks very much. But it has been awhile since I shared my real life to you. Thanks...

The mango on my table really taste good. I am tired. I am off to bed....

Thank you my friend.

Daniel... passing by

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