Never appreciate her when she is around. Now that she is gone, kinda miss it so much.
 

Issue #1:
More and more people are neglecting their blogs. Is it holidays and no one blogs and when school start people blog in lesson? Mind boggling! I want people to read my blog!

Issue #2:
I realised how little money I had saved. I had squandered on food and food and food and some violin strings and some health products and some hair care products and many presents!!!! I am starting to hate birthdays now. For my birthday, dun buy me presents, just be with me and make me feel loved!

Issue #3:
I feel so lost and terrible inside me. The same old feeling, over and over again. And bernice gave me a scholding!

Issue #4:
I wished my parents quit everything they do now, and sit at home recieving rents of tens of thousand than wasting it away and getting into debt. I wished they spent it on more meaningful stuffs like a mercedes for me.

Issue #5:
Ken and Alvin and I going out now. Ken is fetching us. These are the buddies I have in SMU to lean on for brotherhood.

Issue #6:
Relationship problems are such a heartache. You know what I mean. Girls.

Phebe gave me this. Until now I dunno what to do with it. I think it is getting mouldy and I do not dare to eat it. 

I am suffering from lack of cloths. Dun blame me for wearing the same thing over and over again. I do not splurge cash like you! 

Quite some pretty views from my room. 

My left arm aches!!! This is just some of the many songs I am rehearsing for the SMU Handover Ceremony. Not bad for a grade 1 kid. Am I talented or what? 

World of Music. World of Secret Garden. World of the Violin. World of the strings. 

This is my Consumer Behaviour class photo during my Summer Term in SMU. Interesting to have a nice prof who loves taking pictures of the class. We feel like a family together. Ok, look through. You will find some babes and hunks. I dun belong to that category. 

The reason why I post is that I dun want to be like all my other friends who had neglected their blogs. Some even shut it down. I am not really in a mood to blog and there is nothing interesting to blog either. But I just had to blog for the sake of blogging. I hope I make it into some newspaper or something. Wahahaha!!!!

I woke today and went to the pool alone. Swam and sun tanned abit. Very tranquile and nice. Feels like I am at a resort everyday at my doorstep. Having westerners in the environment made it feel just soo good. I feel like I am in the States or something. Wow!

I got an A for Consumer Behaviour. Thank Jesus for providing me that. I am gonna miss my friends. I will miss Prof Rama too. Sigh.

As I look down upon the entire bedok estate, it is being covered slowly by dark and big clouds. Goonna rain soon.

I feel in a lost manz.

Proton had just amazed me.

My Brother is celebrating his BIRTHDAY!!!! As his younger brother, I had the duty to follow my maid and grandma to shop for his BBQ party tomorrow at our place! He is turning 24 or 25. Not very sure. He is 1 yr older than me. I dunno I am 23 or 34.

He is inviting all his female collegues from HSBC!!!! But the sad thing is I will be in church. The good thing is those gals are all 18 to 23 yrs kind I think. I feel bad I cannot be around to see my future sis in law again. I wish him all the best. Anyway, my brother SUCKS at food stuff. I doubt he can prepare food or handle the bbq. Muhahahahahahha!!!! I think we should station our maid or some family members around to keep order while he network with gals. Here is my wish for him...

" That Hao will manage to find a sweet Christian gal, and introduce to me..."
" That Hao will earn enough money to pay me back what he owe me...."
" That Hao will earn enough to buy his EVO 9 before the age of 30..."
" That Hao will grow in wisdom, club less, spend more time with family and find a good gal to settle down with..."
" That Hao will be happy in all that he does..."
" That Hao finds God and Jesus..."
" That Hao will REALLY buy the EVO9 to share with me..."

Damn I hope he does not forget all those favors I did buy fetching him.... HEee....just borrow the EVO9 awhile!!...

Was chatting with my maid and grandma in the car. And then she was comparing who amogst the 4 brothers, is the safest. After some discussion.... here is the rankings my ah ma came with...

In order of safest:

1) Jet
2) Kermit
3) Hao
4) Khang

Eh khang, the reason why u ranked last is because they were complaining that your turning is super fast... Apparantly you mistook the Kangaroo as a Larmboginie. Muhahahhah!!!!!

Due to popular demand, this article was released:

".... the authorities have apologised to the defendant in question for wrongly accusing him of stealing the Moove Media cows. The authorites acted in response to the reaction faced by the public when pictures of the cow in his van was spotted in his blog. Without investigation, an arrest warrant was issued to charge the defendant of public goods misuse and secondary vandalism. The defendant and his family will be loging a lawsuit against the relevant authorities for acting inconsiderately without proper investigations.... the authorites is expected to settle tha matter outside of court within the next few days. Compensation is expected up to S$20,000..."

Mooooomoooo... Mmoooomooooo 

Erm... need me to explain the cow and my van meh?... Heeheee.... SSHHHhhhhhhhhh!!!!! 

Family Update - See to know me more and my family

I just checked my Grandma's glucose level. it is 14.6 which is BAD BAD BAD!!!! She looked weak and pale... must be not feeling well. Oh well, gotta watch diet and maybe excercise more...

SMS Update:

Dad: Kango lao liau. Need svc ok!
Kermit: How much?
Dad: Already 5150 km
Kermit: How much to service?
Dad: New car hve 3time free svc, but jus pay 4lablour my b less than $50
Kermit: Wa Shiok
Dad: Like my cammry.i only pay $29
Kermit: You drive so much?
Dad: Cammry something different! 1st svc @ 1000km
Kermit: I see!

Daddy never fails to impress me with his sms messages. Tinted with humor and plenty of errors... muhahahahha!!!

Recently composed a song for my mother's choir. Think i impressed her totally. Call it scoring points! But I still dun get to drive the camry leh...muhahahahahah!!!!

Saw a catalouge for some terrace housing. Mother told me she bought a unit liao! I was like WTH!!!!! Actually she was trying to fool me. She mentioned no money. Hahahah. Turns out it might just be some documents because my dad also do housing stuff..heehee

My bro has been coming home late. Mother is not impressed!...hahahahaha. But i find it necessary if he needs to find a partner in life. You see, when u start work it is very hard to find a GF. If u do it in school it is ok and can be very nice. If you do it at work, they call is SEXUAL HARRASMENT! WTH~~~~!!!! Thus, kudos to my brother, who have been putting in effort. He mentioned that it is 'near'.

Freaking leaves me the last of the 4 brothers to have a gf. Think time is bad. I only know enough girls to count with my fingers what do you expect me to do? I dun club, I dun mix arnd much even in church. All I do is play my piano.... somekind of dream eh? But then, ask myself.... why do I find a partner for? I want a partner? I need a partner? I found my partner? God chose the partner?...and the list goes on..... I got no comments.... But I treasure all who comes in my path.... =) till thant spark finally bursts into flames.... i dunno when or will it happen...

Yay!! CB (Consumer Behaviour, not bad work ok?) big project just presented. The wonders of dateline (dead-line) is really powerful. It can propel you on the day before more than you can imagine. I think we did great. Some other groups were really good, but I think my group rocks! They are Joan, Karen, Jane and Alvin. We are left with a small individual project and the final exam. This is what u do in 4 weeks of summer term:

1) 2 Quizzes
2) 1 Individual Assignment
3) 1 Small Project
4) 1 Big Project
5) Exam!!!!!!!

I want a Rolls Royce! My brother tell me. If I work for others, I will NEVER get it. If people work for me, I will get to drive what I want. Eh, true or not? Nonetheless, I hope that one day, I will have few thousands people working for me. I want to be Chief Marketing Director for a huge department.

I think my group mates think I am lame. I think they always scorn at me at my jokes etc. I think I am just trying to be nice. But people think I am lame..haahaha. Ok heck! Just have to make sure they are cheerful. Cause that is my job when I was sent to earth.

Someone in my school drives a Boxster. I think he is a Ah sia. I think he is gonna be a very good friend of mine..haha. Just got to find the chance...so can borrow it. Muuhahaha.....I AM LAME.

I almost died! Yesterday driving to school along PIE. Up the slope, many cars come dead slow. I step hard on the brake. Floor was wet. Car wheels almost locked. Car skidded about 20 metres. The bumper came closer. Almost hit liao. About 1 metre away, the truck sped on... wow!... my leg became jelly... it tasted good though..

Do you still go friendster? Or is MSN emoticons the IN thing now?

TAG!!!!!!! Make me feel LOVED!!!!

Some marketing trailers I designed for my club's past concert.  

Miss Xueling, my Ex......... cell leader!! Muaahahahhah!!!! Sorry she is taken! hehe! And Ben, my G12 leader now! Notice the beer?!.. =) 

There you have! 3 pretty babes from my choir. I believe they are from the soprano section? From left is Yvonne, the YeeJia if I am not wrong!, and Miss Aloha!!! Hehehe... This photo makes my piano appreciates in price... Muahahha! *winks* 

This was a photo of my TPJC choir party at my place. I am so suprised to find this pic!! Nelson far left, is the conductor. He is talking to bryan, our president then. Beside me is Jamie and Ding I think. They are like my bog brother and big sister. I kinda miss them! =( 

Some pics of my old cell group having New Year's Party at my house. It was taken during my JC days! (1) Me and Ujin trying some sexy move on the dance map. (2) Group photo of my cell group. (3) Davin and Wenloong. Both my choir mates. Davin is acting on the piano. (4) Me and Tricia. Not really sure how it is spelt! Heh. She lives near me down the road.  

My days onboard the proud RSS Sea Wolf. The people and the ship was my most memoral part of my National Service. I really miss my collegues onboard the ship!!! 

I was driving home from Amber Road somewhere in the KAtong area. Then.....

1) When I was in Damai Sec School, I heard a loung bang! A SBS bus ran over a cat. The innerds exploded from the middle body. The head was intact, but the eyes poped out.

2) My friend told of how a car ran over a dog. He looked into the rear mirror. Other cars ran over again and again.

3) I sent my friend home. He mentioned he saw a rat's head got crushed by a car from his seat's view.

4) Fiona ran over a cat with her SUV.

Just now I was driving. Before I know it, there was a little body already bloodied from the crush. Before I knew it the image slid under my car.

Then this "tud" sound sounded twice, in sync with the lift I felt on both front and back left tyre. There it was, I running over a dead animal. Should be a rat.

I feel terrible. Pls call me and talk to me.

*Kermit* - "depressed"

I was with her at the beach. The breeze blew at our face. She spoke of her past and reminded me of mine. Then I was stuck. I thought about the past and could not understand why. And it made me just want the truth. I really dun want to be in the unknown anymore. Deep in my heart, I have known that before the answer was given to me. It made the hand of the clock tick on. It will have to tick on. Not doing so, it will be deemed useless and time will not wait for it. Silly as it may be, the hand sleeps because he thought the dream that he was living in might come true. But as time passed by without him catching up, the dream shakes as it was trampled upon and beaten. Till this very moment, the hand struggled to tick on. What if it was right to stay there? But what if it should have ticked on? Because time should have never stopped.

Until now, joy is in the dream, it is in stopping and not wanting to move. It is so uncertain now. So uncertain. So uncertain it hurts!

Wah Man!! This is my dream home! Awesome! 

Here I am. Sitting in front of a flat screen, 13 storeys above the ground. I overlook the entire East Coast estate in this haze of moisture and grey clouds. Apartments, swimming pools, roads, private house, HDBs, schools. It is just another of the moment I always experience. A time of loss. You know you jolly well can read a book, watch the TV, study for your exams. But, you just have to be still and do something brainless. Like blogging at this time. Feeling a sense of loss and emptiness.

I thought to myself. As expressive as I am in this virtual world, what if I was able to do the same thing to a person in real? For example, the girl you are always fond of. Or the person you wanted to understand better or help. What has this blogging phenomena done to human race? The psychi of mankind? If I could say out my heart to that person in real, I believe the world will be a better place. A place where heart meant for heart. A place where humans are experiencing what we call the "personal touch". We have slowly accustomed to this virtual thing. Some call it just another form. I call it escape.

I agree I find the virtual world my cave. In fact, it was my hideout. Communication takes less energy and guts here. So tell me. Is me really me here? or is me really me out there facing you? What is the control? What is the basis? So what is right what is wrong?

So then, if I have to find a better thing and put in effort to do it, rather than sitting and speaking pathethically to myself as I wrote, What will it be?

1) Walk with someone who means alot to you along East Coast Park. One who loves the beach as much as you do.
2) Sit with someone, and just be a listening ear. Let her find comfort in you. Let her find a cave to rest in you.
3) Have fun with a few of your good friends. So you know you do have friends who cares. And you friends will know you care.
4) Talk a walk around. Look at the trees and appreciate God's creations. And fresh air do you good.
5) Sit alone at the breakwater. Think about your life. About how well you've made use of it. And try to think of ways to be a better person to the one you love.
6) Sit at the piano, and let your emotions out. Write a song that will bless others.
7) Wash your dad's car.
8) Talk to your grandparents. Just talk to them. Because that is all they wanted.
9) Remove hair and pubic hairs from the gutter in the bathtub.
10) Pay $10 for 1 packet of tissue to that poor lady selling it. You know it means alot to her. A hell lot!

I want to be a better person. Really. I want to love people because I love them. Not because I can expect a return or their love in return. I want to be able to love myself. Not comparing with others. The grass is always grenner on the other side. So why should I indulge in self-pity?

Is my worth in life to you all that is represented from my physical attributes and material posession? Or is it that intangible experience or blessing that you have experienced being with me? Which do you want? Which do I want? Do you only remember what good you've gain from me and not what you have done for me? Do you only tell me how much I meant to you only to turn back and forget what you've just said that very moment? Do you only come to me when you need me but dispose and disregard me when you have that moutain which you can seek shelter from and not need me anymore? Am I all that it is to you?

I wished I can be myself by being someone else. Because that someone else I want to be is not myself now, I wished that someone else I want to be will be the real self I really want to be. I dun want to be someone else when I know I am myself and thus by being someone else I am not myself really then. For now I am finr with myself for who I am but I cannot help but want to be someone else because I feel that myself now cannot compare to that someone else. But how do I be that someone else when I know that I can only be myself and will never be someone else? Yet everyday I want to be someone else, thinking that if myself was that someone else I can be happier. It is then I had wished that from the beggining myself was that someone else and that someone else was already me.

I really want to be there for you.

'Ribit' Roundtable Gather once more!

Did you all read the KERMIT CHRONICLES? Oh yah, it was mentioned that Kermit had $100 Taka Voucher last time. And he spent it all!!! Here is the list!~

1) OP Beach Shorts
2) OP Berms
3) Hush Puppies Shirt

I wore the shirt today. Oh boy Kermit looks really good in it. Kermit fall in love with this shirt immediately. Too bad other designs happen to have slightly different cuts, if not I will buy the whole series!!! The cutting for this one is really fantastic! 'Ribit'. The beach shorts was great too, but not the wearer... muhahhaahha!!! Sigh, need more muscles, meat, fats and some tan. Blah... ain't gonna rant about these anymore...!!! 'Ribit'

Kermit played piano today! Supposed to meet Joan for drinks. But in the end we did not drink anything at all! We were stuck in the Lounge playing piano and drums. Joan observed Kermit as he played. And Kermit observed Joan as she played. Boy her playing was just soothing and nice. It really mesmerised me!!!! To add to that, Joan really has such a wonderful voice. It really melts me, as she sang with so much passion, either accompanied by Kermit or by her own playing. I wished I had a great voice too. For now, lemmi stick to piano yah? Joan can play the drums too. Most girls would be lost behind a drum set, but joan could play the basic already. Is this not wonderful? A beautiful lady in SMU who can play drums...at least basic drums. That is so talented man. She can dance too. I have seen before. So graceful.

Kermit learns to go Suntec from SMU. But sad to say, I have slightly forgotten how already. I have to do it several times if I really wanna know how the route works. Oh yah man. Sent joan to Suntec at around 0530pm. It seems her church gives out tickets for Bible Study Service because of the over demand in attendance. The actual thing is 0730pm!! Wow!!!.. I wished I see this in FCBC too! People yearning and hunger to enter into the temple of God as one family in the church. Is that not wonderful?? And we had a great time sharing about our dreams, our ministry in church and really wonderful stuffs. It seems we are always so excited talking about God and ministry everytime we meet.

Kermit is tired! Dunno why these days, Kermit has lost his energy and all. If cooked for frog leg soup. It wun taste nice i think!

Ok I think I had a great day actually! =P

Roundtable Dismiss!

Rountable Gather~!

Kermit is DEAD MEAT! As good as cooked for frog leg soup! I am so tired!!! Last night the Ah Sia federation got a boost of dry swimming at the president's pond. 5am!!!! What the!! And i was in class at 830am!!! I am really knock off!!! I am now chewing Skittles Sour Candies to keep me awake while typing this. After that will cook CQYD before sleeping. Tonight to go church again. God why must we go church so many times?

I appreciate Singapore Taxi Drivers are hardworking and help the economy. But I dun get it why they cannot tahan 3 to 5 seconds before a car moves off from red to green light? There in front of my was an poor lady in white hair driving a Starlet. After the red was green, she had a problem engaging the gear. I waited. With love. Only to be startled by the HORN! from a cab behind me. Why are they so like that? They are heartless creatures! Imagine if the cab was behind the lady, he would have caused her more panic. Alot of drivers are like that, no heart for others. They cannot even have some patience to let the pple in front clear. They only like to HORN HORN HORN!!!! Thats all they can do! Nothing else. Bloody toads. May your cab be filled with water and you drown when you are heartless toads! Bloody toads! When I become CEO of a cab company, my first move is to shut down the company. Toads!

Why are relationships always full of trouble? I do and do not appreciate I am single. But why are my friends around me all having relationship problems? Why are guys not loyal? What are GF not understanding? I know I am in no position to ask. But I do know I will try my best to be understanding and loyal. It is commitment you see. When you can forgive and see beyond the flaws, there is an angel in all of us! "ribit"... Kermit now is on a journey. A journey of discovery. Love is such a wonderful thing to embrace, and yet we treat it with fragile attention only. Why? Why can't you love for who he or she is? Why? "ribit"

Kermit is seeking. To be able to love himself. For it is the greatest gift of all.

MESSAGE BOARD:

Jiamei: Always ignore me on MSN... wth!
WL: Nice to talk to you recently!
Joan: I find you very tired these days. Pls take care ok? =)
Wanni: You are really great! I hope your troubles and decisions in life are handled well and that you will be happy still! *hugs*
AH SIA FEDERATION: On the agenda: 1) Gym 2) Tan ad swim 3) Cooking 4) Majong 5) Picanto, Kangoo and BMW 5 Series outing drive-out.

Roundtable Dismiss!!!! *Ribit*

What do you get when frogs unite? The answer is a group photo. And there you have it! A family picture of all my brothers. Yes. 4 frogs in all. Joining us are 2 beaurtiful ladies. Lemmi intro. From left: Misako the beautiful air stewardess, of Japanese origin, GF of my 2nd brother Calvin. On the far right, Janice, wife of my eldest brother, Jet. Behind them, Kermit and Hao. Yup. You have it, topped with Godiva chocolates. SIN SIN SIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P 

Remember about the dog I was mentioning? The one that hummed me 4 or 5 times? Wala! Here it is! Enjoy!!!!! =P 

Life's Simple Pleasures! 

Never knew Ah Sia Kias can cook?! Oh yeah we did! There you have some terrific creation with stuffs from Cold Storage! Beef and Prawns in Wine and Italian Herbs. Emperor Chicken, Coke and Corn and Chicken Soup. Prepared by the Ah Sia Federation directors themselves!!! Bon Apetite! 

"Ah Sia Federation Board of Directors" 

Frogs of the Kingdom Unite! It is time to 'ribit' again. Mating calls begin!

I gotta remind myself that school has started! I just cannot believe it why the heck Kermit is taking 3A during holidays when I can spend the time doing personal grooming for myself. Visit the pond and tan, excercise and carry on with the prey and predator thingy. *sigh* That is what you get for paying $600. To sacrifice your holidays for a summer term when in Singapore, summer is an all year thing.

Kermit and it's chicken fetish. Over the last few weeks, Kermit has the luxury of trying both the Salted Baked Chicken and the Emperor Chicken. It is both $16 and $10 respectively. I am getting a herbs overdose. Cannot 'ribit' anymore if I carry on like that.

Ah Sia Federation outings commences yesterday night. With the three directors having a deal of a time working out in the Bayshore Gym, looking down the array of beautiful people in the swimming pool and the luxury scenery. Frogs in the pond with waterfall is such a haven. With the waterfall doing massage on your hair and supposing to be the next alternative to Yun Nam haircare...hee.. What is most inspiring is when you see 3 male frogs attempting to cook up a supper. That is what i call unusual. Of course, we had the luxury of using the President's hometown. Situtated in the deep rainforest of Bedok, the cooking takes place while a pianist accompanies with soothing music in the backgoround. I must say the food was fantastic!!!!

3 Frogs attempted Pasir Ris Mangrove Walk! And DAMN the place was blocked of due to renovation. We captured some moments on the video tho... soon soon soon... we will be back.

I must say Kermit's left arm seems bigger than his right one! Yup, due to intense violin training for the upcoming SMU handover. I am really going bonkas! My arm is aching soooo much! How to jump around in the pond like that?! =( And also I have to play all the flat notes.... what the heck!!!! Asking a grade 1 violinist to play thaT?!?!?! ARGH!!!! kill me and make frog soup! *GGrrrrr*

Ok pictures will be up soon! Stay tuned!!!!

Frogs of the kingdom unite! and Dismiss!!!